It is now officially Autumn in my eyes. I’m wearing fleecy PJ’s, wrapping myself in blankets and curling up under duvets when I get home from work at night. I’m waking for work before the Sun even thinks about making an appearance and I’m getting home just when it’s beginning to get dark. The world is a whole lot of grey right now.
There are a few things that are happening in my life that are transitional right now for me – as my colleague has notified me at work – I am in limbo.
Firstly, I have a new job which I am due to begin on 11th November. I’m currently serving my notice at my current workplace – so I’m in limbo there. I’m nervous about beginning something new (but also excited), and I’m really sad to leave my current colleagues as they just ‘get me’… they have a lot of knowledge, advice and experience (in life and work). I know I’ll miss their opinions and very well structured advice.
The other thing is the person I’ve been seeing the last few months is moving to Australia for a year. It makes me very sad that he is leaving and as we have not known eachother long it seems that we will be going our own separate ways when he leaves on 4th November. Again, this makes my heart heavy with sadness. But we are enjoying things while we can, we will remain in touch while he travels and see where we are and how we feel when he comes back. Again – another limbo situation – he’s not gone yet, but I know he’s going, I know we will be separated etc…
A more trivial matter is that I’ll soon me changing my car from my black, boxy Hyundai i10. What to, I’m not sure. Idea’s please! Because I can’t make up my mind and make a decision (c’mon, you’ve seen how I am with Filofaxes, inserts, dividers etc…! The CHOICES…!!!), it makes me miserable therefore I feel in limbo until I have reached a decision or settled on a ‘goal’. Ultimately I’d love an old style silver Audi TT. Reality is I need something pretty newish, cheap to tax, insure and run… and something no larger than a medium hatchback. But I want something iconic, something with a bit of glamour to it. Maybe even a convertible. Ah, I don’t know.
Another thing in limbo is my own transition. This one is the hardest to explain. Lately I don’t feel very ‘me’. You could say it’s the other factors in my life that are affecting me. You could say it’s the weather, my age, call it what you want. I don’t quite know where I am at, or what I want, or why I’m feeling this way, or how to stop feeling this way. Something just feels ‘off’, or ‘missing’. So I’m currently in limbo waiting for that lightbulb moment where I get that clarity spark and everything begins moving again.
Until then, I had my lowest moment yesterday daytime so during my lunch hour I faltered and gave in to a deal on a Pink Personal Finsbury. After I panicked, had a bit of buyers remorse and felt guilt like no other, I realised that my Halloween set of dividers won’t be co-ordinating with the fun pink Finsbury, so last night I darted over to my local craft shop to buy a new set of scrapbook papers.
Naturally when I was faced with a lot of crafty bits and bobs I got carried away and purchased a few bits and bobs ready for my new addition. It’s all girly and vintage looking 😉 if you’re in the UK, you can purchase all of these from The Range.
The colours and patterns I chose were similar to the pastel throughout Legally Blonde 2 – pretty much how I would imagine Elle Wood’s pink Classic Filofax to look inside. Although, I am yet to find an “I brake for Sample Sales!” bookmark 😉
I’ve just been notified by Amazon that my Finsbury has arrived at my home (well, signed by my neighbour as I’m still here at work). Staring at the clock and willing 5.30 to arrive. Come on 90 minutes, do your magic! So exciting! I will have to do an unboxing post later on tonight now…!